The Dark Days Are Over

I'm starting to feel more like myself...and I love it!  It's the small things in life that matter the most.


*I laughed for my first time yesterday in a week.  My dad was worried he tagged himself in someone's picture (he was creeping on someone's page).  I laughed so hard.  It was wonderful.  I got to spend the evening with my beautiful nephew today, he made me laugh the whole time.  I forgot what great medicine laughing is.


*I started to feel excited about going to work again.  I'm a teacher and I have found a lot of happiness being back in the classroom.


*I love to dance and sing in the car.  Yesterday I caught myself dancing.  I was happy.  Nothing was going to take that away from me.  


*I stayed late at work today and changed my entire room to November.  I changed all my bulletin boards and hung up new projects from the lights.  I'm in some pain now because I overdid it, but hey, that is just a sign I'm feeling like myself again.


*I'm really good friends with a teacher at work.  We joke back and forth all the time.  Yesterday I found myself pulling her chain and acting goofy.  I went through the afternoon totally forgetting I had lost something.   Today my friend was telling me how sad she was for me and I told her it was going to be okay!  Haha We then realized who was consoling who and started laughing.  I told her I'm going to be okay..and I know I will be.


*I haven't cried in two days.  Not even when I'm alone in the car.  That has been so nice and much easier to drive without trying to see through the tears.


I know that I will never be the "old" me again.  I just can't go back to the way things were.  But I know the "new" me is really going to stop and smell the roses more...because if there is one thing I learned from this whole experience, it's that life is just too precious to let it pass you by.